and i always thought that goodbyes only existed in stories.

i swear. i think im retarded. 

i find refuge in my blog. 

just writing everything out (: 

wow right? 

only thing that wont judge. 

and will 'listen'

do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.

played against sp today. 

i dont show it but i cant explain in words. 

how much it hurts. 

you say that you didnt mean to do what you did

that you didnt want to hurt me

but if you really are.

then why do you continue.

continuing to stab me in the heart. 

are you going to make me happy 

or am i going to have to lie to my diary? ):

now im afraid i have to go. 

i thought that our days would last forever

but it just wasnt our destiny

cause in my mind we had

so much time but i was wrong